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  1. Jools

    Losing a Friend

    I thought this would be pertinent here A PRAYER  Keep me free from evil thoughts. Keep me free from the blackness of despair. At the time of my misery shine a light into the darkness that enshrouds me.   Let my every thought be good and clean. Let my every action be for the good of others...
  2. Jools

    Private GP Prescriptions - UK

    @ElectroNymph  I did what any decent human being would do. I don't think anyone can truly understand what power social services have until they have to deal with them. They can do more damage and cause more problems than many can ever believe.  I will NEVER forget what they did and how they and...
  3. Jools

    Private GP Prescriptions - UK

    Thanks. I too had been either thrown out or left over 5 or more or more doctors practices. It was only when this current GP took an interest that we started to get some positive help. I did habe to go to the local drug project and other stuff but it at least got me on enough meds to beg me...
  4. Jools

    Private GP Prescriptions - UK

    I am the guy the @PTFC talks of. My GP does me a PP for alpraz/xan. It used to be only 0 5mg and X 30 every 3-4 months but since my last diagnosis he is much freer with the prescribing and has allowed me 1mg. I got 60 last time ( 3 weeks ago Upjohn) and it cost me £18.70p. That goes to show how...
  5. Jools

    Bi polar

    That sounds extremely like what I habe just ended from. The multi layers of fake Facebook profiles, the internet dating sites and so much more. NONE of ismdeserbes this, EVER  she just came to pick up her stuff and tried to get us together by rationalising what she did. This time I was prepared...
  6. Jools

    Bi polar

    I just wanted to add that I am very grateful in particular to @trinity for starting this thread. @DippityDoo for adding some very relevant points that needed addressing immediately and to @PTFC for going above and behind to make sure I was ok.  This forum is so much more than I think it set out...
  7. Jools

    Bi polar

    Very similar experience here but she feigns incapacity to work yet is out most night earning and earning well from her photography business. I can't get my head around the fact that, for her, getting benefits is the most important thing of all & it's like she really doesn't count the money...
  8. Jools

    Bi polar

    My own experience of true happiness has been when I have either helped someone to do or achieve something they thought they couldn't or when I have done something totally unsolicited and for a friend in need or the homeless guy in the street. Happiness, for me anyway, has always been a byproduct...
  9. Jools

    Bi polar

    It doesn't feel like it right now but that's natural because even if the habit is destructive it's still an habit. I now need to lick my wounds and move on 
  10. Jools

    Bi polar

    @trinity  thank you very much. I fully admit that what you say is 100% correct. I find it close to impossible to give off anything else and because I spend an inordinate amount of time in hospitals and with my GP. Each time I feel I've moved forward then something physical has manifested itself...
  11. Jools

    Bi polar

    @trinity  I can surely relate to that though I am not able to say I've evolved to any stable level as such. Unfortunately I can still get dragged down to the gutter and am sometimes reactive. I am however working on this &  those who knew me 20 years ago would not recognise the me I've...
  12. Jools

    Bi polar

    @DippityDoo. I will message you. 
  13. Jools

    Bi polar

    Well said @PTFC. I have only truly alone when my brothers and parents died. That was the worst and darkest time of my life, so far. As human beings we ALL face certain and in common things. Loss, fear, existential loneliness and we often walk a path that is neither here nor there  The best...
  14. Jools

    Bi polar

    I am in that kind of relationship right now. When we met she was literally at least half the person she was, was motivated and has an incredibly keen intellect and high IQ. New relationships always seem to habe that honeymoon period but then, around 9 months later, I noticed small things like...
  15. Jools

    ppe2u

    What is it with so many using pre GABA now ? I see people can't get enough of them and my GP even said it was the next drug of abuse. I have had the GABA pent but not pregabs and I am interested to know what they do that is so nice ? The GABA pent made me put on 20kg in weight, I found it hard...
  16. Jools

    Has anyone tried Fent spray or pops?

    @rocketman. You are most welcome. I've been in hospital and been pumped full of both morphome and fentanyl and I came home to a fairly large amount of various other good stuff but it's the etaxolam that has been the shocker. Also really enjoying the clonazepam as I'd ne we tried that before...
  17. Jools

    Has anyone tried Fent spray or pops?

    This is much more informative and I will paste it in. Basically it gives the start doe and also does for those not using opioids before.  http://www.healthcare.uiowa.edu/familymedicine/fpinfo/Docs/adultopioidrefguide.htm
  18. Jools

    Has anyone tried Fent spray or pops?

    Hi @rocketman i habe found difficulty in finding equivalency but 400 of fent is equal to, get this, 960 PC morphine. I will look into this firthermfor you 
  19. Jools

    Post your favorite pet pic?

    I maybe be mixing my breeds up. A bengal in U.K. Is not a big cat per se and are mainly brown here with lovely rosette markings. There are new Asian leopard cats and new Asian bengal cats and I wonder if these are being mixed up in my head. A UK show class bengal would cost around £450-600...
  20. Jools

    Post your favorite pet pic?

    The Norwegian and the Maine coon are the two largest domesticated cats. 14kg is fine and he is still not fully grown. He has been checked for HCM and is free of it so is a big healthy boy. I would not be without one or a few Maine coons in my life as they are natural comedians and will always...
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  1. ontovzik @ ontovzik: When I had long term shingles, lasting two months. All he could give me was a 10 day supply of dilaudid. He looked at the ground while we were talking about it. I could tell he was ashamed but it was the legislature and the governor that tied his hands. He was very upset that non-medical political people, the media, and the scared public were controlling how he treated his patients. Someday those people will need meds and a hospital bed and they will be gone.
  2. ontovzik @ ontovzik: I had a great doctor, he had the true gift of a healer and he stayed on top of all the science. He straight up told me that for many people opiods work for managing short and long term pain.
  3. ontovzik @ ontovzik: He peed it in the snow in my backyard.
  4. WTF7218 @ WTF7218: @xenxra 😆😂. Yes, but only a few brave souls will ever find the number. You must first order a Dirty Shirley from the bartender. Then you must discreetly take the cocktail napkin from under your drink and unfold it. There you will find the map to the location of the phone number, and clues to decipher the code that it is written in.
  5. xenxra @ xenxra: he left his phone number scribbled in a stall at the pub three blocks down
  6. aBBazaBBa123 @ aBBazaBBa123: @rockychoc How do I contact you?
  7. N @ NYStateofMind: @Alkazar I would try one of those easy online ones .. reddit gives useful info about that
  8. Alkazar @ Alkazar: @NYStateofMind I dont really have a history of abusing things, my docotr is just really stingy. I am thinking of switching.
  9. C @ Cheesus: Thanks xenxra
  10. xenxra @ xenxra: @Cheesus yeah, use snote
  11. P @ psychedpsych: Trump is cracking down….
  12. P @ psychedpsych: Hackers are the scum of the earth
  13. N @ NYStateofMind: so it was easy bc of my history
  14. N @ NYStateofMind: I didnt really tell him but he knew I needed a new script since my dr went to jail
  15. N @ NYStateofMind: @xenxra I was on Adderall since 15 years ago so my dr prescribed that w no problems and then when I lost my best friend my doctor rxed the valiums but
  16. C @ Cheesus: Temp.pm down for anyone else?
  17. xenxra @ xenxra: @NYStateofMind my doctor's have always been pretty open minded if i can actually come in and explain the pharmacological action of the drugs im seeking instead of just telling them why i think i should be prescribed. the only time it didn't work out for me is when i was trying pharmaceuticals for depression ten years ago and suggested they let me try testosterone instead (turns out i was hypogonadal so they made a mistake denying my request at face value)
  18. T @ Testisthebest: Even down here in Florida when the pill mill docs all switched over to Suboxone and/or retired you can still find some pretty liberal docs but you gotta know what to look for. Mine does "pain management, detox, anxiety,etc. And no insurance. My doc writes me 60 5mg Valium, 14 2mg Xanax and asked if I had ever tried adderal to get more focus at work as I told him I run my own business.
  19. N @ NYStateofMind: @Alkazar do they know your history? Like I dont tell my doctor anything about myself except what they need to know,...I was able to get my dr to rx the highest dose of adderall along with valiums ..... if they dont know your history or there is no history I would just come out and ask what is the reason for their mistreatment.... they have no problem billing your insurance or taking a payment for the visit
  20. T @ Turbo259: @Layne_Cobain Thank you fam
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