Hey there. Sorry you are having a bad night. I think we’ve all been there. I’ve had more nights than I’d like to admit just like you’re having. No meds really makes everything seem even worse. I’ll be in this very situation tomorrow as my vendor was slow to ship.
Just know that you’re not alone. Little solace, I know. But sometimes it does make it a little better. I don’t know your situation, but just hang on. It will get better. I’m going through a tough spot in my life right now as well. I lost my mom a few months ago (she was everything to me), and then after being off of meds for a year, I’ve fallen back to it. It has helped me greatly get through this rough time, but I’m spending money that I feel guilty about, and I know I’m going to have to pay for it later and not monetarily but physically and mentally as I can’t stay on them for much longer. I can go on, but I won’t.
All I can do is hang on. Hope tomorrow will be a better day and also realize that their are others that have it much worse and somehow feel grateful when I feel anything but.
I hope you get feeling better soon. Find something positive if possible even when it’s God awfully hard to. It won’t be like this forever. It shall pass.
much love to all. Happy holidays.