A little bit about what led me to discover this community/family. Eleven years ago I began treatment for panic disorder. For a very long time things went well. Maybe too well. I was given Klonopin 2MGx3 times per day and during most of 2018 was being given 2MGx4 times per day. My world began to end around the last quarter of 2018. My doctor began cancelling appointments which led to blatantly just not showing up to the office. He did continue to e-scribe for awhile even though he was not keeping appointments but, then he dropped the bomb. He closed his practice and literally abandoned all his patients. I had to scramble to find a new doctor to treat my panic disorder. The problem with this was every doctor was all the sudden scared to death to prescribe a benzo. My first new doctor immediately put me on 5MGx3 times per day of Valium. I had no idea about benzo equivalencies and could not figure out why after about day five I began to get really sick. I made an emergency appointment with him to tell him what was happening to me mentally and physically. He was smug and simply told me I was addicted to benzodiazepines. I suffered horribly for seven weeks and began trying to solve my own problem after I realized all three of the doctors I went to see wanted nothing to do with benzos and were looking to taper their patients fast. I had to treat myself. I have for the most part got my life back by acquiring and researching clonazolam, diclazepam, etizolam, flualprazolam and alprazolam presses.