I'm still pretty young so I have tried to get, everything I read about and my docs like that I read so much but thing is.. I asked for a mor-feen pump and "no that's too dangerous" yet required so much less medicine.. and now this is supposed to be safer? Remember I read everything, haha! Dr's.. gotta love em for their help or hate em for their greed.. luckily mine aren't greedy and just wanna see me better. Case and point got cut of my alps by my insurance, told my PCP who writes my kpins, he had forgotten I was on them but w/ in a week I had them back.. he did NOT forget I had a seizure when they tried to do it before.
W/ mine I've only had a triple fusion, "only" ha! But they wanna rip it out, as it's now part of me, and put a bigger one in.. I told my Dr's.. Naw I'd miss the whole BHIC reunion this summer and it's their 20th anniversary. Had I said Avett's or Langhorne Slim and the Law.. he'd have said, "you've seen those guys over 60x's each.. it won't hurt" The one understands when I say "But yes it WOULD just seeing Sean(Slim) Smile at me and be like "How have you BEEN my brother it's been too long" is enough to make my month.." got 3 shows coming up in April.. I miss those guys.. he's friends w/ many local artists, he's a very very smart man, and believes in fate.. that we didn't meet for no reason, there was one.. and he never pressures me to go down but.. I DO like having my soul back.. I didn't realize how much I was missing til I got to where I am. Sooo many concerts I traveled for.. yet only have glimpses of remembrance.. luckily I know the cats who video these bands shows, so I can relive them, cuz really.. when the music is so good, and the artist pours his/her soul out for everyone in the room, I tend to close my eyes and dance, cuz I never know which COULD be the last one I can really dance at(and I pay for it for a week after but those moments are so precious anymore after 77 Dead shows by 19, 1/2 a lifetime later, just thankful I still can groove)
