Losing a Friend

[ElectroNymph]

I had an online friendship with a younger woman since mid-2012. Yesterday, I had another breakdown, and sent my Mum and her a variety of messages. Some angry, others apologetic, ending with suicidal plans.

She put up with my illness for years, but now "She can't do it any more". Her Mum nearly died recently, and I had no idea. She was very tolerant for years, and understood that I can't help having my illness. 

I felt better today, until I read the email. Such a nice girl/woman, I took it for granted that she'd always be there. 

Will miss her so much, don't know what to do.

 

[dotcomkot]

im really sory to hear thet electro. its fucked life is fucked we take things for granted when in reality things arnt always going to be there. u can talk to me i have a same kinda story not exactly but i have ben through some shit. pls dont go mad on the narcotics too much talking is meant to be the key although it never helps me

 

[ElectroNymph]

im really sory to hear thet electro. its fucked life is fucked we take things for granted when in reality things arnt always going to be there. u can talk to me i have a same kinda story not exactly but i have ben through some shit. pls dont go mad on the narcotics too much talking is meant to be the key although it never helps me

You are right dotcom, I need to be positive. Make the most of my life.

 

[dotcomkot]

i cant like im out already lol but i liked ity . yes u have girl 

 

[Hammerblow]

You have to make the most out of everything. I don't believe you've lost her forever some people just need alittle time. Everything can feel really raw and we all do and say things which we don't mean. I had a wife who suffered. From OCD (Pure O) not the light on/off type. But it manifested itself in the form of blood phobia she convinced herself that she gave someone Hep C and because I experimented with the usual drugs you experiment with when you are at university I had HIV. She knew I never but it's not a rational illness so most days I had to read to her a letter she had written saying I never had HIV. My patience at times was tested but back then I loved her  so no matter what I would always come back. Remember friends, family, partners love you and  they will always be there sometimes it's just giving them alittle space. Also if it's any  consolation you can count me as a friend.  Love.x

 

[ElectroNymph]

You have to make the most out of everything. I don't believe you've lost her forever some people just need alittle time. Everything can feel really raw and we all do and say things which we don't mean. I had a wife who suffered. From OCD (Pure O) not the light on/off type. But it manifested itself in the form of blood phobia she convinced herself that she gave someone Hep C and because I experimented with the usual drugs you experiment with when you are at university I had HIV. She knew I never but it's not a rational illness so most days I had to read to her a letter she had written saying I never had HIV. My patience at times was tested but back then I loved her  so no matter what I would always come back. Remember friends, family, partners love you and  they will always be there sometimes it's just giving them alittle space. Also if it's any  consolation you can count me as a friend.  Love.x

Thank you. *Blushes* Ditto. ?

 

[trinity]

We have stated this prior but honestly believe that a lot of peoples problems are of a spiritual nature. The construct of the material world has taken the emphasis off how important spirituality is, it has removed the core essence from humanity for 95% of the population.

Giving off positive vibrations and frequencies is what will manifest into your reality. You are the creator of your own reality.

All the best.

 

[Jools]

I thought this would be pertinent here

A PRAYER 

Keep me free from evil thoughts. Keep me free from the blackness of despair. At the time of my misery shine a light into the darkness that enshrouds me.  
Let my every thought be good and clean. Let my every action be for the good of others. Let me be positive in my thoughts that my mind may be strengthened there from.  
I am the Master of my Destiny. As I think today, so am I tomorrow. Let me therefore avoid all evil thoughts. Let me avoid all thoughts which cause distress to others. Let my Spirit arise within me that I may easily succeed in the task that lies ahead.  
I am the Master of my Destiny. So be it. 

 

 

[PTFC]

Some great advice posted here by all, very heartfelt, caring, and apt. You're really amongst friends @ElectroNymph. x

 

[ElectroNymph]

Thanks for the kind advice, everyone. I really appreciate it. ? ?

 

[ElectroNymph]

And especially @trinity , I had a 'moment' with you, but it's big of you to be so decent.

 

[blissopifree 2]

Keep your head up electro one day at a time and please remember we ALL have bad days and I know it's hard to keep posative.

I'm sending you cyber hugs and good vibes lass.

Jools your prayer is very appropriate to many on this site ?...

Peace 

Bliss....

 

[ElectroNymph]

Keep your head up electro one day at a time and please remember we ALL have bad days and I know it's hard to keep posative.

I'm sending you cyber hugs and good vibes lass.

Jools your prayer is very appropriate to many on this site ?...

Peace 

Bliss....

I'm trying to. It's hard to even survive at the moment, need a job desperately, but there are people in worse situations than myself.

 

[trinity]

I'm trying to. It's hard to even survive at the moment, need a job desperately, but there are people in worse situations than myself.

Thats a good attitude to keep, as no matter as desperate it seems (and I have been there as well) there is ALWAYS a SOUL in a far worse place.

 

[US Army Veteran]

I'm trying to. It's hard to even survive at the moment, need a job desperately, but there are people in worse situations than myself.

Very good outlook. You will be in my prayers.