Man wtf

[MrFuszy]

I wrote my whole life story and deleted it apvp is some serious shit don't play with it. man I just went through it again yall. But I wrote so much it told me too many words. This apvp gone dude no one gets it. Im.not putting that evil shit on no one that shits some evil stuff dude..like evil. Im breaking the pipes flushing this shit I can't lose anymore then I have.
Yall stay strong.. wow I want some benzos.bsd man but.im to close to this job my play time come.and gone, it was a fuckin nightmare I hoped for the best shit that shit was rough dude.DONE

 

[MrFuszy]

Gone. Bitch ass dope! Man fuck apvp dude that bullshit trash man. No good doggies fuck that dope I just flushed that shit, Man I spent money on something and i had to throw it out man that's fucked up! Doing some growing up today brother the pipes are all smashed the dopes flushed, Man I can't be playing like that or ima get fucked off bro that shit is a bitch to shake, it just like lingers in your brain for days after your done with it but it doesn't let go of you man like your brain feels exhausted, like you just went 10 rounds and got the fuck beat out your sorry ass and your like fuck off! But it comes back and it's like this bitch ass shit doesn't know me like that bro I have gone through some hard shit bro, like you ain't fixing to be the one that takes me out! Im a survival living mother fucker man, but I had to toss it, it won't back off and it was only getting worse and worse man I had to think quick bros or I might have not made it outta this, im still not outta the woods yet but the fires out. So it's just going to have to be like that I took a fat L on that shit, im salty bros man dudean im heated but im gonna be ok. I got my cat.cookie here bros my moms on my side man im gonna get thru this but it could have been a very unhappy ending, I got myself extra monitor time with parole now too, bro im done playing around. Dopes not right no.more dudes like drugs usto be fun, they usto make all the bad shit I done been through go away but it don't work no more bros, Im getting to old, it's not easy to quit but when it ain't fun no more it ain't doing not a bitch ass thing for you no more then what the fuck are you doin? I had to make a choice if I don't quit my shit now im gonna end up fucked..now soon as my others packs come in that's dead as fuck. And im mad.as a bitch bro
.no one gets it thatd dead as fuck. Tough titties. But I'm not gonna sit here and tell you I didn't just go through fucking hell with that shit and then put that bullshit out there like its cool! Man you got me fucked up! Shits not cool dawg, that's how you get beat the fuck up stabbed or shot putting shit out there like that. Hell nah, evil ass dope. Now my sorry as is broke but I gotta job coming up, just gotta fade the L of fucking up.lst some money just let it go. Gotta pick your battles man. Son of a bitch dude that was alot of shit gawd damn it man. Ahhhh I'ma be alright I've taken harder loses and came out swinging strong. Meh just got me shook that's all.

 

[MrFuszy]

Bro Markipliers a fool with it how fucking rich is this dude just sitting there playing games all day son of a bitch made a movie too chill out. I like him he's got good vibes..so what the fucks every one else got going on? Bro yall just see me get the fuck beat outta me! That sucked. Ima hoe, I guess, lol

 

[MrFuszy]

What the fuck dude its almost 1pm are you fucking kidding me!!;
Tf man. I feel like shit I didn't even do that much for that long you have got to be fucking kidding me. -_-im good just not happy

 

[MrFuszy]

I had to take another codon to take the edge off. My gawd man. Am gonna have to get back on Suboxones dude this shit fucking sinks its fucking fangs into you and just don't let go. Like I got some crumbs of mdma left but even that feels like a bad idea. I can't find enjoyment from gaming I barley want to even watch yt like damn man this is rough.

 

[timyboy]

Slow it down a notch buddyyy

 

[Sakshi]

I had to take another codon to take the edge off. My gawd man. Am gonna have to get back on Suboxones dude this shit fucking sinks its fucking fangs into you and just don't let go. Like I got some crumbs of mdma left but even that feels like a bad idea. I can't find enjoyment from gaming I barley want to even watch yt like damn man this is rough.

Give it a bit man. cathinones are NO JOKE and binging them is fucking GNARLY. primary and only reason i refuse to even fuck with that shit.

i tried BK-M |) M 4 back in the day and i'm not one to compulsively redose, even with my favs, aryl(y(lohexy1m1n3s. cathinones are on another level though - with BK, i REFUSED to let myself comedown. and some of these other cathinones, specially some of the ones going around now a days seem absolutely demonic as fuck in comparison so yeah fuck that.

Give it a week or two man. use that willpower - you've got it and you know you do. you'll be gucchi.

 

[MrFuszy]

Give it a bit man. cathinones are NO JOKE and binging them is fucking GNARLY. primary and only reason i refuse to even fuck with that shit.

i tried BK-M |) M 4 back in the day and i'm not one to compulsively redose, even with my favs, aryl(y(lohexy1m1n3s. cathinones are on another level though - with BK, i REFUSED to let myself comedown. and some of these other cathinones, specially some of the ones going around now a days seem absolutely demonic as fuck in comparison so yeah fuck that.

Give it a week or two man. use that willpower - you've got it and you know you do. you'll be gucchi.

Dude your not joking this shit had me doing some shit. Im like half dramatized from this ordeal. Like nobody got hurt or anything thank god! But im feeling this bullshit right here. Im sleeping a tiny bit better and eating a bit better. My cat was like like what's wrong with you type shit and im like cookie idk!! But man I got to shower and do stuff man I gotta get on my feet

 

[MrFuszy]

What the fuck man I could have lost everything!!! Wtf this was nuts!!
Everything I have worked so hard to keep. Man I was gone for 14months and im going to risk it all for shit like this im tripping for real. That shits still all fucked up in my restroom!

 

[MrFuszy]

Dudes were supposed to be better then this my man, like I know a lot of people in this world for real, and in this shit we do like I cannot be fucking up like this. Others can't either man. There's to much we can lose bros. This shit took me for a ride and I almost forgot I was supposed to get off. Like you better not

 

[sam xan]

What the fuck man I could have lost everything!!! Wtf this was nuts!!
Everything I have worked so hard to keep. Man I was gone for 14months and im going to risk it all for shit like this im tripping for real. That shits still all fucked up in my restroom!

take a xan

 

[MrFuszy]

Man my moterskills are shit bro! Man cmon, I can't even walk to the restroom bro and take a shower without kicking my leg into something or like sweating my ass off bro your fucking kidding me dude!
Youd think id been like doing some hard zenes or something and im just out or some shit. Im half way to telling my people to help out and help me clean this shit up man. That shower was not easy to do.

 

[sam xan]

Man my moterskills are shit bro! Man cmon, I can't even walk to the restroom bro and take a shower without kicking my leg into something or like sweating my ass off bro your fucking kidding me dude!
Youd think id been like doing some hard zenes or something and im just out or some shit. Im half way to telling my people to help out and help me clean this shit up man. That shower was not easy to do.

mb man just relax

 

[MrFuszy]

Give it a bit man. cathinones are NO JOKE and binging them is fucking GNARLY. primary and only reason i refuse to even fuck with that shit.

i tried BK-M |) M 4 back in the day and i'm not one to compulsively redose, even with my favs, aryl(y(lohexy1m1n3s. cathinones are on another level though - with BK, i REFUSED to let myself comedown. and some of these other cathinones, specially some of the ones going around now a days seem absolutely demonic as fuck in comparison so yeah fuck that.

Give it a week or two man. use that willpower - you've got it and you know you do. you'll be gucchi.

Thank you brother! This is just like hard man cuz my people are like stopping me from getting my shit. So im like No stop it! Let me have just a little something plz. But there not letting that happen so I'm just like a mess. Bro I got people following my shit from all over the place dude like people are like rooting for me to come out of this shit. Bro that's crazy, im like a reality tv show for some yall! But that's cool, long as I got people cheering for me im good. I need that. I can't imagine how twacked out im coming off as but like dude my benzos man c'mon! That's hitting me the hardest. My people won't let me have them.
I want them though.
Like fuck all the other shit just gimme those. But they won't. Im frustrated! They'll give me a few codon but no benzos man c'mon!
But there's gotta be a reason. Damn that hurts the soul. It's like everything has layers to it now, like nothing is simple no more. There's like a reason for everything and all the little this and that's like they get in the way to stop this shit and I just have to trust them that they're looking out for me too. But I don't like it.
Man this sucks.

 

[MrFuszy]

Slow it down a notch buddyyy

I apologize but man, I just trying to air out my mind so I can calm down. My people won't let me have my benzos bro so I'm like just strung the hell out. I have nothing to calm down with, it has to all come from within me. It's not so easy man. I can't just drop a couple this or that's and chill. There's nothing to chill with. So just understand like there's a reason I just vent and type and let it just flow so I can be alright. Ill try man. Ill try but damn.

 

[MrFuszy]

Im gonna cut this yard, I just need to do something. Ive been in my mind to much. Fuck this shit. I need to relax. Take my mind off this shit. Dudes my benzos are here and i cant touch them that's bullshit dude. They better gimme my shit man.

 

[MrFuszy]

Ok house vacuumed now just need to mop the floor and then cut the yard. Man I feel uncomfortable as fuck yall. But im pushing through this!
I almost forgot that people were depending on me to clean up around here. Like neglecting my home cmon back on your feet bro, snap back!

 

[MrFuszy]

l

mb man just relax

I was having a hard time doing that. It was fucked up. Like 1day I was ok the next I was stressed, geez that was bullshit. I ended up finding out I hadn't done as much as I thought which that was a realization in itself, but my people took a lot of shit from me, and there still more shit like coming, but that's dead as fuck. I was able to see my doctor who did his magic, but I won't see that until later today, man this whole monitoring bullshit these people got me on sucks. Like I can't have no fun. Man this is fixing to be some lame ass shit but what other choice do I have -_- Im eating better and cleaning up better but I got freaked out from the whole endeavor, im about to be off the codon and back on my xans so like I will get through parole visit and UA I should be good with like days to spare. But Im gonna go eat some food again. Another boring day I can't wait.

 

[MrFuszy]

Man there's alot more people then I thought who will care about a random stranger that's awesome man! Like I thought nobody gave a shit about anymore anymore, man this shits not true. I got random strangers like lookin out bro I see yall! Ty.

 

[MrFuszy]

take a xan

I couldn't bro all my shit got taken away from me. I've just been like arms flapping in the wind this whole thing. My doc I hit him up and talked to him he was like yeah well I mean you haven't had anything for such a long time your sensitive to things now and I'm like (like your mind is thinking you need this much up here to get you where your tryin to be) but its actually like way the fuck down here near the floor but you take all this extra shit thinking you need it to get you there but your actually just like overshooting the fuck out of the whole thing. It was a hard thing to experience. I didn't like it
, that's bullshit but man I've gone through worse then this , like were all just seeing this as it unfolds. Like I know I'm gonna be alright man, it's just getting there wasn't easy or fun. You just gotta catch yourself and pick your shit up and start at the small steps again. Like I'd rather take a few steps back then have my whole rug pulled from under me falling down stairs and shit. Like that's what were trying to avoid here. Its that realization that that could have happened and that's scary. Everything else is just like damn that sucked but im good. It may not look like it, but man im good.