“Should I stay or should I go now...”

[Shadowinside2020]

Hey community, 

Hope you read the title and heard the voice of Mick Jones from The Clash in your heads   anyway, back to Ms. Bat shit. My lady basically had nothing when I met her. I gave her a home, got her a job, clothes, etc. she’s freaking CRAZY and over the past week, she’s been SUPER CRAZY with a big ass SC on her chest. I’m a software executive so my hours can go to 15 a day, 7 days a week for months. It’s been over a year now and the crazy is coming out, something feirce. She’s attempted suicide multiple times in the past also, she says all the time she doesn’t want to live. I end up getting the brunt of the past mistakes made by another in another lifetime (Indigo Girls ref) I honestly think I stay around because she has absolutely no one but me and no where to go, but I can’t bare a suicide on my shoulders. At the same time, I’m losing my mind. I live in constant stress. I get accused of whatever her mind decides to make up that day and suddenly I’m doing it, but I’m not at all. I’m at a loss and have zero idea what to do here. All helpful suggestions welcome. 

Jstew318

 

[BellaDonna]

@Jstew318 So, let me understand (and simplify), you would stay out of guilt?

 

[Shadowinside2020]

Hey @BellaDonna...I apologize for such a delayed response. I don’t remember seeing the notification. Not so much guilt per-say, I’m not sure how to explain. It’s more like a pit in my stomach when I think of it happening. Today was a great example...I’ve been awake since 3:30 am Friday working on a project issue and I’m still working at 1:26 Saturday morning. I asked politely that she please not text me all day with random things. I let the entire office know I was on lock down DND. Text after text, after text! The most random things and when I replied to ask her to please stop, she’s responded, “well, why are you texting me?” I get too frustrated after that for hours and then get snippy. You get it, I’m rambling lol. 

I appreciate you responding, I’ve haven't really talked about this openly with anyone. 

 

[Marshmallowmayhem]

One of the things most precious to me in life is peace of mind. She’s not respecting what you are asking for her and something tells me you don’t ask for much. Time for you to reclaim your peace of mind.