My anxiety is all consuming and changes the trajectory of my life …
I’ve tried SSRIs, SNRIs, detoxes, rehab, therapy 1on1, group, over 135k in insurance billing (treatment) also tried non bzd interventions : service, breath work, spirituality, gym, gabapentin, hydroxyzine, kratom incl. 7ho (and synthetic derivatives mgm, pseudo, etc) Remeron, pregabalin, beta blockers, L-theanine, magnesium incl. Threonate, lemon balm, magnolia bark, agmatine, passion flower, chrysin, apigenin, kaempferol, quercetin … … … I CAN keep going but will spare you the rest, it’ll just fill pages with no point … the point is NOTHING has truly worked or turned me into a functional man unlike DIAZEPAM.
I lived a normal life when I was responsibly using it for years (over 20!!) and it was all taken away from me when my substance abuse issue greatly escalated … when I chose to deviate from diazepam and turned to RC Benzos … my life spiraled … I am now almost over a year since I’ve been on a steady state of a bzd … and it’s not working … I’m begging for help … and it’s NOT a big ask … I just need a vendor that ships US->US diazepam… foil preferred, and if I must loose blues … I’ve been out of the scene for awhile so I’m not sure how things are currently … I’ve researched here but wondering if someone could recommend a src … my life … my job, my marriage depends on me getting this right.
Thank you for your time , if you read this long. Feedback is greatly appreciated !
I’ve tried SSRIs, SNRIs, detoxes, rehab, therapy 1on1, group, over 135k in insurance billing (treatment) also tried non bzd interventions : service, breath work, spirituality, gym, gabapentin, hydroxyzine, kratom incl. 7ho (and synthetic derivatives mgm, pseudo, etc) Remeron, pregabalin, beta blockers, L-theanine, magnesium incl. Threonate, lemon balm, magnolia bark, agmatine, passion flower, chrysin, apigenin, kaempferol, quercetin … … … I CAN keep going but will spare you the rest, it’ll just fill pages with no point … the point is NOTHING has truly worked or turned me into a functional man unlike DIAZEPAM.
I lived a normal life when I was responsibly using it for years (over 20!!) and it was all taken away from me when my substance abuse issue greatly escalated … when I chose to deviate from diazepam and turned to RC Benzos … my life spiraled … I am now almost over a year since I’ve been on a steady state of a bzd … and it’s not working … I’m begging for help … and it’s NOT a big ask … I just need a vendor that ships US->US diazepam… foil preferred, and if I must loose blues … I’ve been out of the scene for awhile so I’m not sure how things are currently … I’ve researched here but wondering if someone could recommend a src … my life … my job, my marriage depends on me getting this right.
Thank you for your time , if you read this long. Feedback is greatly appreciated !
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