Death Of A Friend

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I just found out that a good fiend of mine was found dead in her apartment. It looks like it was an accidental overdose. It sucks to loose a friend this way. I had tried many times to tell her she was over medicationing but she would always say " I know what I'm doing". I just want to say that we all have to be careful. I include myself in this cause I do like my soma. We have been friends since childhood. I'm just kinda realing as I just got the call from her daughter. Just feel like I should have done more. ThAnks for listening. N

 
I'm sorry for your loss Nickiean. That's a sad way to lose a friend. It's a reminder to take great care for all those that are self medicating. I'm sure a lot of people feel that they know what they are doing, but it can’t hurt to examine our actions more closely.

My condolences.

2E

 
OMG Nickiean I am so sorry. What a horrible thing to happen. Tragic. You can lean on us as much as you need to. Just try and remember happy things about your friend..she would want you to. Hang tough girl, I know you are made of steel!

Love and hugs sweetie

Xoxo

 
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nickiean said:
I just found out that a good fiend of mine was found dead in her apartment. It looks like it was an accidental overdose. It sucks to loose a friend this way. I had tried many times to tell her she was over medicationing but she would always say " I know what I'm doing". I just want to say that we all have to be careful. I include myself in this cause I do like my soma. We have been friends since childhood. I'm just kinda realing as I just got the call from her daughter. Just feel like I should have done more. ThAnks for listening. N
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Nickiean,

It's natural to feel guilt for the loss of your friend to such a tragic and preventable circumstance - but the reality is no one can change an addict except the addict. I've spent half my life "Self Medicating." I don't like it - I wish I could find better ways to cope with stress than wine and Ambien - and one day maybe I will. But your message is incentive and serves as a reminder that numbing pain, grief, anxiety, etc. can become a natural state that empowers one to believe they have control over their vices. We don't. Your childhood friend didn't - and if she had children and couldn't find the purpose to overcome her addiction - than surely you could not have prevented her loss.

That may sound harsh, not intentionally, and surely you have my greatest sympathy - but perhaps brutal honesty in the face of death due to overdose requires perspective. To love an addict, albeit a friend, child, spouse, etc. requires enormous energy. I know enough about you to understand you gave your energy, support and sincerest love to your friend over the many years you spent together.

We all have lessons to learn or share in this life. You were a great friend to her. She knew it. But please know this, strength doesn't come from pills, alcohol, needles or a pipe - inner strength comes from hope. Hope is an evasive remedy to overcoming the trials and tribulations of life.

I beg you now. Keep hope in your heart. And in case you need it, I'll send some additional hope your way. And courage, in case you need that, too.

XO!

Bloom

 
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Nickiean,

It's natural to feel guilt for the loss of your friend to such a tragic and preventable circumstance - but the reality is no one can change an addict except the addict. I've spent half my life "Self Medicating." I don't like it - I wish I could find better ways to cope with stress than wine and Ambien - and one day maybe I will. But your message is incentive and serves as a reminder that numbing pain, grief, anxiety, etc. can become a natural state that empowers one to believe they have control over their vices. We don't. Your childhood friend didn't - and if she had children and couldn't find the purpose to overcome her addiction - than surely you could not have prevented her loss.

That may sound harsh, not intentionally, and surely you have my greatest sympathy - but perhaps brutal honesty in the face of death due to overdose requires perspective. To love an addict, albeit a friend, child, spouse, etc. requires enormous energy. I know enough about you to understand you gave your energy, support and sincerest love to your friend over the many years you spent together.

We all have lessons to learn or share in this life. You were a great friend to her. She knew it. But please know this, strength doesn't come from pills, alcohol, needles or a pipe - inner strength comes from hope. Hope is an evasive remedy to overcoming the trials and tribulations of life.

I beg you now. Keep hope in your heart. And in case you need it, I'll send some additional hope your way. And courage, in case you need that, too.

XO!

Bloom
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You definitely missed your calling. You should be a writer. I love reading your posts!

 
May I ask if it was the Soma she overdosed on? Or was there others involved ? I too take Soma 4 a day. So I just wanted to know. If you don't want to talk about it, I understand.

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Thank you all for you're support it means so much. I know I was a really good friend & I never gave up on her even when I had others say to me," why do you even bother." To me no one is a throw away friend. She had a horrific childhood with 2 very addictive parents who where never there for her or her 4 siblings all of which have substance abuse issues. I sister died in a car wreck while drunk, 1 burned up in a fire while drunk. 1 is on Meth, & 1 is in prison for drugs. We lost touch over the years but when her husband died about 9 yrs ago & I read it in the paper I went to go see her & and we reconnected. She depended lot on me cause she had lost her license after 3 minor accidents & her daughter was scared for her to drive because she did over take her zanies & oxcee. She was also diagnosed with Bipolor disorder& PTSD from her childhood. She was raped by a family member so that is why I say I tried to be there for her cause she needed a good friend.I am not a perfect person by any means but I take friendship very seriously because I made a lot of mistakes when I was younger & I got a second chance & I had a very good friend who stuck by me through a serious coke addiction. She didn't take soma but would have if she could have gotten it.I do know if it was an overdose it was not intentional because she told me numerous time she could never take her on life. Bloom thank you for that. I needed to be reminded of that. Thank you all for caring. I love my DBG family. Nickiean

 
Oh Nickiean is great Revenger! We had an interesting start to our freindship...(lol nickie).

Nick, you are an amazing friend. I am humbled by your kindness. It is indeed a privilege to "know" you. Hang tough baby girl.

Bloom, your posts rock! How beautifully stated.

 
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