A.C.
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- Dec 13, 2014
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Thanks Matt, I have taken close to that of C0deen and I know what happens.. it's very scary.. From what my state and Dr's say I'll NEVER be off any of my meds fully, I'm just looking for a better/different "way" cuz I need the energy and can't take most ups, no doc's would give em to me anyhow and most make me too jittery.. even the weakest of the weak and herbs. I'm just looking for a way outta this "hole" I feel I'm in and after 10yrs(I'm 10 your senior) I just don't know what else I can do so Imma move.
I live by lyrics, I've found my Smoke in our lights "You're the words in the song, that Shannon Hoon sang to me, and all around my memories.. you danced" to Shannon's own
"When life get's hard you've got to change" back to the Avett's "When the black cloak drags upon the ground I'll be ready to surrender, remember that we're all in this together.. If I live the life I'm given, I won't be scared to die" back to Shannon "And they'll say, "well look at him and I'll never live that way",that's ok, THEY COULDN'T anyway!"-excerpt from Change at Woodstock '94.all the way to Ben Harper's Better way, "Reality is cruel and cuts through me like a knife, everyone I know is in the fight of their lives BUT I BELIEVE in a better WAY!" I best hear Ben sing that this summer..
BTW, don't beat yourself up so much, I smoke, down to 1pk/10-11 days.. I t0ke.. I'm not afraid to die, I just wanna LIVE cuz I got my life cut out from under me, RIGHT as I was coming into my own after all the problems I overcame, so my fascination w/ RC's is I ALREADY take meds w/ no long term tests.. why not try another, to knock off another.. I may stop the Kpins for good when my next letter comes, I'll be good on Di@z for the yr.. Now to try some things it's been years since I have.. Thanks for taking the time to write and you can PM me as well w/ your experience but I KNOW what that stuff does, being I was prescribed More pheen for yrs,, it can do the same, or it can put ya 6ft under... it's scary cuz all I want, is SOME quality of life, and a week/month is NOT that..
Peace, 1
AC
I live by lyrics, I've found my Smoke in our lights "You're the words in the song, that Shannon Hoon sang to me, and all around my memories.. you danced" to Shannon's own
"When life get's hard you've got to change" back to the Avett's "When the black cloak drags upon the ground I'll be ready to surrender, remember that we're all in this together.. If I live the life I'm given, I won't be scared to die" back to Shannon "And they'll say, "well look at him and I'll never live that way",that's ok, THEY COULDN'T anyway!"-excerpt from Change at Woodstock '94.all the way to Ben Harper's Better way, "Reality is cruel and cuts through me like a knife, everyone I know is in the fight of their lives BUT I BELIEVE in a better WAY!" I best hear Ben sing that this summer..
BTW, don't beat yourself up so much, I smoke, down to 1pk/10-11 days.. I t0ke.. I'm not afraid to die, I just wanna LIVE cuz I got my life cut out from under me, RIGHT as I was coming into my own after all the problems I overcame, so my fascination w/ RC's is I ALREADY take meds w/ no long term tests.. why not try another, to knock off another.. I may stop the Kpins for good when my next letter comes, I'll be good on Di@z for the yr.. Now to try some things it's been years since I have.. Thanks for taking the time to write and you can PM me as well w/ your experience but I KNOW what that stuff does, being I was prescribed More pheen for yrs,, it can do the same, or it can put ya 6ft under... it's scary cuz all I want, is SOME quality of life, and a week/month is NOT that..
Peace, 1
AC