@Pilliam Glad to hear from another fellow member! I totally feel you on not usually being sociable and then when that med hits the sweet spot ! Ahhh, Good times

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To follow up on your question about the inspiration or influence of movies on our preferences, lifestyle or drug choices ..... I would say Yes and no. At least for me, I guess I can see why I am attracted to these type of movies as I can easily relate to the trials and triumphs. Some of these drug genre movies, “romanticize” drug use which I can certainly understand this as many times I have had some phenomenal times in my life with different substances but while watching a lot of these movies when I was a much younger man or not quite even a man yet, it certainly made me think that it was “cool” , being wrong or right. I don’t think that they necessarily led me to any certain substance as I found my drug of choice quite young . I found the love of opi8s. It has caused many issues in my past, I won’t lie, but at the same time, I can sincerely and honestly say that they have also enhanced many parts of my life and me. They of course, stating the obvious, have helped me with pain that I’ve dealt with from various issues but more than that, they’ve helped me with depression , self confidence and anxiety. They have helped me deal with severely emotional times and crises that I’ve encountered. And sometimes, the best version of myself is thanks to this special substance. With that said, there is a fine line that is easily crossed between maintaining and abuse. That’s when I get myself in trouble. It’s very hard to walk that line . As I know MANY others can relate. Sorry, not trying to get off topic... Seems I’m feeling a little talkative myself

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I can certainly relate to your post about glorifying the addict lifestyle. It’s definitely cool

until.....it’s not lol. I really enjoyed reading your very candid post. It was so brutally honest. I felt like at times that I was reading my own autobiography lol. With all of the scheming and planning. Raiding medicine cabinets and having to get clever. It takes some serious smarts and dedication. Who knows what we could achieve if we applied this to the “proper” channels or if only I could have that much motivation in legit business or other areas of my life lmao.