Introduction

[Poptartcarts3]

Just saying hi, introducing myself, glad to be here. Have made several purchases from a vendor I found on this forum and wanted to become deeper imbedded within the community. Very closeted with my use, so there’s that. Not sure what else to write! Thanks and I’m happy to be here

 

[Poptartcarts3]

As I sit here waiting for amy 1:4 M/Amp presses to kick in and as I write, am riding the come up, I thought I’d write a little bit more…

I’m in my late 20’s and while this might not be what this forum is about at all, I do want to throw out there that I’m a very experienced and practiced astrologer and tarot reader (the word psychic makes me want to vomit; I genuinely hate the way what I do sounds in my own ears and I know its cringe as hell in every regard).

I have just about 16 years of experience/practice reading—I started so young, as a child, that I really don’t remember why I started reading in the first place and I was exiled from my church for what I do as a preteen; though, I’ve made a return to biblical christianity within the last 7 years or so (meaning, I read and believe in biblical christianity, as God word, stated by the bible) and believe that astrological teachings and oracle (tarot). I’ll explain this a bit below… but I have a very disciplined practice with what I do, and I think most if not almost everyone who reads is full of bullshit—I would never get a reading for myself from another person, ever, unless they were to show the level of discipline in their belief as I think I do. Maybe thats conceded, maybe its not, I don’t know.

I do not believe in deities, I believe deities are demonic. I do not believe in telling the future—I can only give advice and insight without the need to be told, and I don’t believe in witchcraft or anything of that sort.
When I give readings, most of the time, I’m doing what feels like math in my head, calculating symbols into meaning, or giving metaphorical examples and telling stories, giving examples of situations and outcomes, and just talking about whatever I feel makes sense in relation to either the chart, or the cards. Both are mathematical in thinking for me, personally, in a reading when working with a client.

I believe that astrology is the language of God, and the programming “code” that He set in motion to organize and energize the universe, making every single human on this Earth unique with the souls assignment and alignment to the sky at the time of birth. To me, thats the only way it makes sense—why else would God set objects in with the stars, the sun, and the moon—what would the purpose be?

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A few years ago, before I found my way back to God, I feel like the demonic was trying to brand me during a period in my life where I was very vulnerable and very sick. I was dying; bleeding internally, poisoning myself unknowingly, and literally could barely stand up long enough to shower all while my skin was literally disintegrating to the touch and falling off of my body, fainting and throwing up the majority of my daily life for years and years; all while working and trying to maintain a normal life, which eventually became impossible, leading to a time where my life consisted of sleeping and occasionally using the bathroom, all due to a medical condition I had been living with for my whole life unknowingly.

When finally in recovery, I was unable to eat solid food for just about a year, ultimately though coming back into a healthy state of body and mind relatively fast with the necessary lifestyle changes that I had to implement if I wanted to be alive.

In the midst of my past, I received a tattoo of the 6-pointed goat head of baphomet forever on my body (free of cost, impulsive, unplanned, and randomly selected via a gum ball machine with tattoo designs in it)—I truly believe that in my state of increasing vulnerability, I was being branded—because shortly after that tattoo, I regained my health, and with my health, found God again; I do not remember how, when, or where, but I remember it happened quickly. I have heard other people feel like they’ve gone through a similar experience of being branded by the demonic, right before finding God again; seems rather common.
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Back to my practice of astrology and tarot…

Astrology being the code that programs the universe, and every single one of us…

This heavily aligns with my belief that God is within every single one of us; at the time of conception, a flash of light has been documented to be seen in modern science, and in many verses, one example being John 1:1-5 where God explicitly says He is Light and in Him there is no darkness at all. If God is light, and we know that at the time of conception there has been documentation in the scientific literature that a flash of light is seen… as well as taking in account that fact that in Genesis, God made man in his own image, only pulling Eve from the rib of man (Adam), and knowing that in the story of Genesis, God walked with Adam and Eve in the Garden of Eden with the intention of living there, together, forever, and that death only exists because its the consequence of freewill (freewill being what the forbidden fruit was all about; the choice of having choice)… If God made man in his own image, and only by the means of freewill is death the consequence, and the human soul is unique and was only meant to be one—split into two (man and women) made by God, and God is within all of us (unless we rebuke him out and give ourselves to the demonic forces that rule the Earth aka lucifer and the fallen angels who rebelled against God)—it only makes sense to ME that we are all pieces passed down from one human to another, pieces of God’s incarnation, all the same soul living out every single experience of every single person on this Earth everywhere, all the time, all at once.

If you haven’t read the short story The Egg by Andy Weir, he explains this very well…

The Egg - by Andy Weir - Paul Lowe

www.paullowe.org

With everything I’ve said… In Genesis, where its said that astrology/oracle was given to humanity by the fallen angels (lead by Lucifer/satan/the devil/demonic) that separated themselves from God, by their own will, and thus cast down to Earth for having relations with women… giving this forbidden knowledge to humanity is not something that God is unaware of… I also acknowledge that it says very specifically in biblical text that what I do is not right by biblical standard…
—It does state in Deuteronomy 18:10-11 as well as in Jeremiah 23:36-40 that practicing oracle is forbidden and that it perverts the word of God… while acknowledging this, I do believe that God is an All Knowing God, and I believe that the bible is a guidebook, especially for the lost…. But if He knew this would happen, I would assume there would be a plan in place?

…I believe that He is an All-Knowing God, and that with knowing this knowledge would fall into the hands of humanity, would have a plan for that. It says in the bible in Matthew 18:18-20 that nothing is done without the permission of God, and so, his permission must have been granted… I think the plan is more complex than we could ever know, but some people, maybe, are suppose to use such “tools” to bring those far away from God back to him, and I believe that I bring people back to God through my practice all the time…

I do also have a notion to believe that the biblical text has been altered through time (the KJV being an example, where King James created the basis of the Latin translations we base modern english translations such as the ESV, NIV, etc) and that if you look at the text within bibles written in the 19th century (1800’s) vs the modern bibles of today, there are a lot of differences and excluded text as well… To me, there is no doubt in my mind that the bible has been altered both intentionally and unintentionally along with the course of time; my point being, that though what I do is not accepted in the church, I feel as though its what I’m called to, and for that reason, I continue to do it.

To make this come together, because I know its all over the place—I do better with physically talking this out, as typing makes my explanation of everything feel very all over the place and non-linear—what I’m trying to say is that I think the way I read and practice cards and astrology is very, very different from most people who claim to do what I do. I hate the people who do that I do, because I don’t feel like its done responsibly, and that there’s reasons why most people should not do it, and those of us who do—like me, are appointed to do so as our calling, like its some people’s calling to save lives via practicing medicine in the hospital. Everyone has a different purpose, a different calling, and this just happens to be mine.

Most people I have come across who read and practice astrology, are not people who are involved with the practicing of conveying God’s language, under His Word… They worship the creation, not the creator. I convey my readings with His Word at the core of my practice, and I hold my practice to a very high standard and practice a heavy amount of responsibility in what I do.

I’ve struggled with my story, what I do, and whether or not to continue to do this the majority of my life—and I can’t help but feel as though I am compelled to keep doing it by way of faith.

I don’t know, maybe I’m just a narcissist who thinks she is special—I hope not, but I continue to do what I do in good faith that its for the better.

Anyways. Thats me.

 

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