Lost my Best Friend

@Drunkensmurf :( prayers i hate this more than anything animal death
IA. I think it's because we care for them like they are our own babies. Love does NOT discriminate. To have this cute furry little thing depend on you yet you can't speak each others' language so you have to develop your own ways of communicating — that makes for a unique experience. The bond forged is that much stronger probably because of this. And it's *yours* + *theirs*. 💜

And that deep pit of despair you feel stuck in after their loss, well, that would be bereavement😭 ☠️  :661_coffin:

I've pondered this so many times (mostly in the shower if you must know hahaha! 😆 .. don't ask why) : that if you dare to open yourself up and love hard and deep, you're bound, possibly destined, to feel the intensity of this HELL on Earth at some point. I can say that so far this discovery is by far the worst part of my human experience in my opinion. All my breakups; fights with family members and friends; worry about everyday matters - none of it compares.

(the only way I pulled myself out of it—at least after 2 months of crying myself out bone-dry—was after I read up on the "Five Stages of Grief" and realizing that my situation wasn't in any way unique to that of any other human being who's experienced the loss of Unconditional Love's omnipresence, and that I wasn't alone nor probably even the worst/best example of this. After switching my brain to "scientific mode" and taking an initiative to understand what it was that was making me feel so wrought with a pain and emotion I was sure I was incapable of ever even feeling, only then did I being to smile again....that and what the power of TIME does in these cases must be given the credit it deserves!) ⏲️ 👍 🙂 

RIP to all of our adorable adopted family members! 💛 🐈 🐕 🐠 💋 💙

My baby, Ash...

(srry, about the singing...she agrees)

 
IA. I think it's because we care for them like they are our own babies. Love does NOT discriminate. To have this cute furry little thing depend on you yet you can't speak each others' language so you have to develop your own ways of communicating — that makes for a unique experience. The bond forged is that much stronger probably because of this. And it's *yours* + *theirs*. 💜

And that deep pit of despair you feel stuck in after their loss, well, that would be bereavement😭 ☠️  :661_coffin:

I've pondered this so many times (mostly in the shower if you must know hahaha! 😆 .. don't ask why) : that if you dare to open yourself up and love hard and deep, you're bound, possibly destined, to feel the intensity of this HELL on Earth at some point. I can say that so far this discovery is by far the worst part of my human experience in my opinion. All my breakups; fights with family members and friends; worry about everyday matters - none of it compares.

(the only way I pulled myself out of it—at least after 2 months of crying myself out bone-dry—was after I read up on the "Five Stages of Grief" and realizing that my situation wasn't in any way unique to that of any other human being who's experienced the loss of Unconditional Love's omnipresence, and that I wasn't alone nor probably even the worst/best example of this. After switching my brain to "scientific mode" and taking an initiative to understand what it was that was making me feel so wrought with a pain and emotion I was sure I was incapable of ever even feeling, only then did I being to smile again....that and what the power of TIME does in these cases must be given the credit it deserves!) ⏲️ 👍 🙂 

RIP to all of our adorable adopted family members! 💛 🐈 🐕 🐠 💋 💙

My baby, Ash...

(srry, about the singing...she agrees)
I do agree. Time does heal for many things. Just wish time could go faster sometimes. Lol. But not too fast

 
There's no way anyone can understand what this is like until they've gone through it and I've gone through it a few times the last time was my favorite dog of all time, I call her my Bojangles dog because after 20 years I will still grieve.....

 
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