Lost my Best Friend

@Drunkensmurf :( prayers i hate this more than anything animal death
IA. I think it's because we care for them like they are our own babies. Love does NOT discriminate. To have this cute furry little thing depend on you yet you can't speak each others' language so you have to develop your own ways of communicating — that makes for a unique experience. The bond forged is that much stronger probably because of this. And it's *yours* + *theirs*. 💜

And that deep pit of despair you feel stuck in after their loss, well, that would be bereavement😭 ☠️  :661_coffin:

I've pondered this so many times (mostly in the shower if you must know hahaha! 😆 .. don't ask why) : that if you dare to open yourself up and love hard and deep, you're bound, possibly destined, to feel the intensity of this HELL on Earth at some point. I can say that so far this discovery is by far the worst part of my human experience in my opinion. All my breakups; fights with family members and friends; worry about everyday matters - none of it compares.

(the only way I pulled myself out of it—at least after 2 months of crying myself out bone-dry—was after I read up on the "Five Stages of Grief" and realizing that my situation wasn't in any way unique to that of any other human being who's experienced the loss of Unconditional Love's omnipresence, and that I wasn't alone nor probably even the worst/best example of this. After switching my brain to "scientific mode" and taking an initiative to understand what it was that was making me feel so wrought with a pain and emotion I was sure I was incapable of ever even feeling, only then did I being to smile again....that and what the power of TIME does in these cases must be given the credit it deserves!) ⏲️ 👍 🙂 

RIP to all of our adorable adopted family members! 💛 🐈 🐕 🐠 💋 💙

My baby, Ash...

(srry, about the singing...she agrees)

 
IA. I think it's because we care for them like they are our own babies. Love does NOT discriminate. To have this cute furry little thing depend on you yet you can't speak each others' language so you have to develop your own ways of communicating — that makes for a unique experience. The bond forged is that much stronger probably because of this. And it's *yours* + *theirs*. 💜

And that deep pit of despair you feel stuck in after their loss, well, that would be bereavement😭 ☠️  :661_coffin:

I've pondered this so many times (mostly in the shower if you must know hahaha! 😆 .. don't ask why) : that if you dare to open yourself up and love hard and deep, you're bound, possibly destined, to feel the intensity of this HELL on Earth at some point. I can say that so far this discovery is by far the worst part of my human experience in my opinion. All my breakups; fights with family members and friends; worry about everyday matters - none of it compares.

(the only way I pulled myself out of it—at least after 2 months of crying myself out bone-dry—was after I read up on the "Five Stages of Grief" and realizing that my situation wasn't in any way unique to that of any other human being who's experienced the loss of Unconditional Love's omnipresence, and that I wasn't alone nor probably even the worst/best example of this. After switching my brain to "scientific mode" and taking an initiative to understand what it was that was making me feel so wrought with a pain and emotion I was sure I was incapable of ever even feeling, only then did I being to smile again....that and what the power of TIME does in these cases must be given the credit it deserves!) ⏲️ 👍 🙂 

RIP to all of our adorable adopted family members! 💛 🐈 🐕 🐠 💋 💙

My baby, Ash...

(srry, about the singing...she agrees)
I do agree. Time does heal for many things. Just wish time could go faster sometimes. Lol. But not too fast

 
There's no way anyone can understand what this is like until they've gone through it and I've gone through it a few times the last time was my favorite dog of all time, I call her my Bojangles dog because after 20 years I will still grieve.....

 
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  1. Dr-Octagon @ Dr-Octagon: Like Doc to the Oh to the C, i spit G.R.I.M to the E. Then bob ya head the beat fron S.double U to the N to the E
  2. Dr-Octagon @ Dr-Octagon: @oh be g its all about that yeet famo
  3. xenxra @ xenxra: step 1 - stack yo bread / step 2 - go to bed
  4. xenxra @ xenxra: just keep it one hunna playa, it's really simple
  5. O @ oh be g: pull your pants up too son
  6. O @ oh be g: "keep it one hunnid," wtf is ths
  7. xenxra @ xenxra: every day is friday
  8. 3 @ 3ak: @xenxra damn shame, can't find any of the rc stims
  9. xenxra @ xenxra: @3ak mostly, will prob be gone entirely by end of summer imo
  10. F @ frozenSR17: hope everyone has a nice start 2 their weekend. "keep it one hunnid," as someone once said to me
  11. 3 @ 3ak: 4f-mph dried up?
  12. xenxra @ xenxra: pretty sure black also went rogue sometime late last year
  13. Strawhat7 @ Strawhat7: Yo, whatever happened to Mr. Black? Just got a rando email from him after ghosting me like a year and a half ago
  14. LW815 @ LW815: Know what’s really going on in somebody else’s head or how much they’re really dealing with and feel like they’re left with no other options. Been a very sad few days but 2 complete (irl anyway) strangers cared enough about what I was going through to talk to me about it, though they owe me nothing and have no reason to help my personal pain other than the kindness in their own hearts. Just shows that this place is a real community, not just a forum of people who only care about themselves.
  15. LW815 @ LW815: Was nodding in/out the entire time writing those shouts and spparently was fully out sending the last one lol. But II find it ‘uplifting’ as two people I’ve never actually met and only know the others online presence through subscriptions, who I have a better chance of getting a handy J from Jesus Christ himself, both were so quick to share their own experience and wise words and assurances that things will look up and not to feel guilty or be mad at somebody for going that route - as you never
  16. xenxra @ xenxra: @hotdog45 meh, same difference. they both got blacklisted on here. wouldn't be the first time a rogue shop sent out unsolicited comms after the fact.
  17. MOD @ MOD: Hello @everyone
  18. LW815 @ LW815: Own personal experience with this kind of this type kind of situation and sympathized with my pain when I really just needed somebody to talk to. Both went out of their way to help a stranger in a time of need when I really needed somebody, and body to talk to. MM
  19. LW815 @ LW815: Sent a simple conf email and I just dropped a ball on them. I really just needed to let it out, didn’t expect them to reply in such a thoughtful way that it drastically changed the rest of my day and mindset for the bette . Above and beyond - and the last night while chatting with another that I knew had at least once one child,, so i wished them a belated happy Father’s Day, which again caused me to spill it all to them and again received the most thoughtful and kind response, as well as their-
  20. LW815 @ LW815: They didn’t need to. They could have just continued on with the nature or the main purpose of what the relationship between us is, I didn’t really have anybody else to let it out to at the time and they both went far beyond what I’d expect. Not that I’d assumed they’re cold/A-holes - it was just a lot from somebody who’s technically a competent stranger. A very close friend of mine committed suicide on Father’s Day and iwas emotionally wrecked witih nobody to talk to, and the first author just
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