I definitely have bad anxiety and what's worse is I'm not only withdrawaling off methadone but x@n@x as well...I'm prescribed both and been on the MD for 8 years and financially just can't afford it anymore and it's causing a lot of health problems, to the point that I would already be in rehab except the MD has done so much damage to my kidneys and bladder that there's a good chance I am going to have to have surgery soon and no rehab will take me with surgery pending so I figured since I am stuck at home and at the clinic until I either have surgery or get cleared on some other type of medical intervention that can go to rehab with me (ie. medication) I'd dose myself down on the MD and try to at least lower my dose a little on the x@n@x, im prescribed both but will admit I get a few letters on the topic of various @lpr@z0l@m so some would say I am addicted to it but I honestly don't feel that I am....I've just been on the exact same dose for over ten yrs and my Dr. refuses to raise my dose and ANYONE is going to build up a tolerance after ten years so what I discuss in my letters is really just what dosage most Drs would have me on anyway but also after ten years of use ANYONE would be dependent and have withdrawals if stopped cold turkey so Im trying to lower both in the time I have to wait before Im cleared to go. but when I get back home I am going right back on the x@n@x.
So, anyway, as I said previously I am VERY INKNOWLEDGEABLE about sativas vs indicas vs hybrids and DEFINITELY HAVE NO IDEA WHEN YOU GET INTO SPECIFC NAMES LIKE SOUR DIESAL VS PINK ROSE or WHATEVER. I also know nothing about basically any way to consume MM besides smoking or grinding it finely and baking a batch of old school brownies. I live in a state where it is a poor state, most people are used to just smoking it and what comes in was not medical grade it's the mexican compressed low-grade and full of seeds, I was lucky enough to have enough land and privacy to have good seeds shipped in and grow my own when I consumed (even made a couple hybrids, but its been so long ago I dont even remember how I did it!) so can you or anyone point me in the direction either on here, on the web, or even a good book that would help me decipher which type down to the specific strains/names that i need and the difference between the different consumption types and which one would be best for me and then thus what paraphenalia I would need once I found said strain in said form?
