take care and best wishes. atleast you can identify the peak of the manic part of the dark days and take steps to help yourself. 
so jealous of u mate, u can grow (legally) u got that on ur doorstep. it looks awesome an my rods would deffo be in after the halibut. by me the estuary that feeds into the sea u can catch grey mullet an bass they actually are very dossile when its sunny an tend to hang around the banks in groups of upto 10-15 even. ive nabbed one with a net before
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ontovzik:
When I had long term shingles, lasting two months. All he could give me was a 10 day supply of dilaudid. He looked at the ground while we were talking about it. I could tell he was ashamed but it was the legislature and the governor that tied his hands. He was very upset that non-medical political people, the media, and the scared public were controlling how he treated his patients. Someday those people will need meds and a hospital bed and they will be gone.
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ontovzik:
I had a great doctor, he had the true gift of a healer and he stayed on top of all the science. He straight up told me that for many people opiods work for managing short and long term pain.
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ontovzik:
He peed it in the snow in my backyard.
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WTF7218:
@xenxra 😆😂. Yes, but only a few brave souls will ever find the number. You must first order a Dirty Shirley from the bartender. Then you must discreetly take the cocktail napkin from under your drink and unfold it. There you will find the map to the location of the phone number, and clues to decipher the code that it is written in.
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xenxra:
he left his phone number scribbled in a stall at the pub three blocks down
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aBBazaBBa123:
@rockychoc How do I contact you?
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Alkazar:
@NYStateofMind I dont really have a history of abusing things, my docotr is just really stingy. I am thinking of switching.
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xenxra:
@Cheesus yeah, use snote
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xenxra:
@NYStateofMind my doctor's have always been pretty open minded if i can actually come in and explain the pharmacological action of the drugs im seeking instead of just telling them why i think i should be prescribed. the only time it didn't work out for me is when i was trying pharmaceuticals for depression ten years ago and suggested they let me try testosterone instead (turns out i was hypogonadal so they made a mistake denying my request at face value)
