What to do about Manic depression/bi-polar disorder?

[Marshmallowmayhem]

I’m bipolar. I’m on gabapentin 400mg in the morning, 100mg in the afternoon and 400mg at night. Depakote 250mg twice at night (variably) and lamictal 100mg one in the morning and one at night. I was on latuda 20mg, then my psychiatrist upped it to 40mg. A few months later, I ended up experincing a rough bought of insomnia and I had no idea where all of my money went as well as bizarre behavior at work that almost cost me my job. She put me on either 60 or 80mg, which after two weeks, I had to come off it. It was brutal. So I stopped the latuda altogether. For the anxiety she put me on buspirone, not sure of the spelling. I ended up stopping that after taking it for two months. It did nothing for me. She’s recommended Prozac because the combo of Prozac and lamictal is supposed to put you on an even keel. Next appointment I make, I’m going to take her up on it to see if it provides some stability. 

I hope everyone is able to find their dose and the right psychiatrist. Keep fighting.

 

[DoomKitty]

I also have Bipolar.  Type 1.  Co-morbid with PTSD and SPD.  Ive been on so many things, but currently I'm on a more low-key diet of Lamictal, Seroquel (IR and ER), Prazosin, and Risperidone if I'm having breakthrough mania.  Off-books ive found that k3tam1n3 is very helpful for the SPD and also helps in alleviating depression symptoms.   And I do therapy almost weekly.  It's taken a verrrrrrrrrrrry long time to get my life as together and cohesive as it is currently.  My heart goes out to anyone else dealing with bipolar.  @myalias I know you posted that a while back about sharing your story of bipolar and chronic pain, but if you wanna share id love to hear.  I don't currently deal with chronic physical pain, but it could happen at any time, and i love hearing other peoples journeys.  Thanks everyone for sharing too!

 

[tellme]

@Kurt Codean

Hi Kurt,

I am sorry, I didn't read the whole thread. I just wanted to share of some experience of mine:

• I also thought I was Bi-polar, but it was diagnosed social anxiety, major depression, a personality disorder and two other things finally.
  
• When I first visited a psychiatrist and all he offered me was an SSRI, i didn't take it. But I got so angry and felt so helpless about it, that I needed to be brought to the emergency psychiatry in a hospital. The doctors there instantly noticed what I was dealing with and when I was allowed to leave hospital again, I was prescribed the hospital medication and took it at home and felt a lot better.
  
• I talked to various psychiatrist and psychologists since and we are always re-adjusting my medication a little and guess what: Since I take anti-schizophrenia medication, I feel like a "normal" person for maybe the first time in my life. It has many negative side-effects, you would not be able to go work when starting with such meds, but it became a lot better with the time passing by.
  

My point is, don't just believe any doctor and only go to doctors who work professionally and ask a colleague or a psychologist to test you as well, to exclude possible mistakes in the diagnosis. You will feel yourself if certain medication will do you good or not, the doctor, unfortunately, could not see inside you.

And last, not least: Refuse anything Benzo- or Opiate-like a doctor could want to subscribe you. Just say no, there are plenty of better alternatives! Where I come from, doctors consider US doctors to be unethical sadists, no one here would prescribe benzos or opiates because they have no therapeutical reason. You are looking for long-term improvement of how you feel.

I guess you will feel a lot better after you had seen a psychiatrist! All the best from here!

 

[tellme]

Risperidone

That's the anti-schizophrenia medication I was talking about in my previous post.

But even bigger my surprise: This section of the forum is public and open to read for anyone??? @Admin

 

[tellme]

@DoomKitty why would you always be awarding me with these confused smileys.

Risperidon is on the UN list of essential medication for treating schizophrenia. I know, in US you are either "within the autistic spectrum" or "bipolar", but there is a reason why half the world sticks to WHO's ICD-10 and only the amateurs with US passports thought they would know it better and invented their own scheme....

 

[DoomKitty]

I put a confused emoji on your post because you are bothering Admin with questioning why a thread about Bipolar is acceptable for the public side of the forum.  Also the member you @'d in a previous post hasn't been on the forum for 3 years.

 

[Scilenny420]

Quit spamming.up the forum too its annoying. 

 

[Biskoinferno]

I put a confused emoji on your post because you are bothering Admin with questioning why a thread about Bipolar is acceptable for the public side of the forum.  Also the member you @'d in a previous post hasn't been on the forum for 3 years.

Yes I noticed that too .Kurt hasn't been around in years,I still remember good ol Kurt LOL.I think sometimes @tellme posts just to post .Just a FYI there is a violation for posting without value that can have your post count knocked back or worse have you muted from the forum. @DoomKitty @tellme A newbie with 132 posts and still going within 7 days we tend to watch those members to see what's off .Hmmmmm.Only time will tell.

 

[Biskoinferno]

Quit spamming.up the forum to its annoying. 

If it keeps up the mod team will talk about it and have to take action's its becoming a issue and don't think its not being noticed. @tellme This is a verbal warning for spamming the forum before action's are taken .

Good day

 

[tellme]

If it keeps up the mod team will talk about it and have to take action's its becoming a issue and don't think its not being noticed. @tellme This is a verbal warning for spamming the forum before action's are taken .

Good day

I'm not spamming the forum, but you are right, I didn't check the posting's dates I was referring to. I clicked a couple of topics and assumed that these were currently active, I didn't turn to the last page to answer some old thread....

@DoomKitty I see. I usually wouldn't any health issues publicly, just felt unusual that this part of the forum was open for Google.

 

[tellme]

Quit spamming.up the forum too its annoying. 

All my postings are on topic, what's the deal with them?

 

[DoomKitty]

@tellme Just a heads up that telling a mod you aren't spamming after they said stop spamming is not ok lol.   You've already clearly stated that you are intent on getting your posts up to 500 (besides being suss, whyyyyyyy?!?!?!?! VIP is irrelevant and affords no privileges other than access to a rarely used chat thread. And as far as member/mod trust and respect they are going to look more at how long you've been here and how much good reputation you've gotten) so it's obvious why you are posting so much and why some people are saying stop spamming.   Like @Biskobro stated, a mod can cut your post count at any time, and you can be denied access to the VIP lounge whether you have 500 posts or not.

 

[Biskoinferno]

@DoomKitty this member will not make it to 500 posts anytime soon.Some members think the VIP is some special island we all chill at with the best of the best vendors. There are NO VENDORS in the VIP section its just a chat thread that's barley used LOL....Jokes on them when posts get kicked back ,account muted and possibility of a Ban @tellme.

 

[tellme]

@tellme Just a heads up that telling a mod you aren't spamming after they said stop spamming is not ok lol.   You've already clearly stated that you are intent on getting your posts up to 500 (besides being suss, whyyyyyyy?!?!?!?! VIP is irrelevant and affords no privileges other than access to a rarely used chat thread. And as far as member/mod trust and respect they are going to look more at how long you've been here and how much good reputation you've gotten) so it's obvious why you are posting so much and why some people are saying stop spamming.   Like @Biskobro stated, a mod can cut your post count at any time, and you can be denied access to the VIP lounge whether you have 500 posts or not.

Actually, I don't care either about any Status or Flag on my account nor about this VIP forum. I need a little distraction, this is why spend so much time on forums, lately. They sent me a letter that I would currently not be fit enough to attend rehab, and they say my sick note should be prolonged until the measures they recommend change things to the better and the measure they recommend is a rehab therapy exclusively for me. There won't be other patients with me. They say my social anxiety skyrocketed lately and this would be the logical next step. I must say I was already expecting the letter, but I imagined it to provide quite a different diagnosis... I am not good with English, I always need to look words up, but it's like a second reality to communicate in another language.

I said I heading towards the 500, but that was actually meant ironically. When I wrote this I thought it will take years to achieve that many postings. I mean, the forum is basically dead, there are  lots of possible topics but no one says a word. The people who enjoy typing probably are all over at Twitter's

I did not spam and do not spam an will not spam, no matter what others say. I looked it up, I am 100% not spamming: https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/spam @Biskobro

Why would anybody be so childish to cut my post count? I mean seriously, that's what children would do. I find even the fact that someone would think of doing something like this absurd. I used to be an admin for huge intranet, never ever would I have shown that I was in charge, and could let people wait, or say no if they needed something.The IT department actually really in behaved in such manner, but I would often stay in office till night to make everybody happy.

 

[tellme]

@DoomKitty this member will not make it to 500 posts anytime soon.Some members think the VIP is some special island we all chill at with the best of the best vendors. There are NO VENDORS in the VIP section its just a chat thread that's barley used LOL....Jokes on them when posts get kicked back ,account muted and possibility of a Ban @tellme.

If you delete my posts just to prevent me from making it to 500 someday, I would be seriously angry, but the joke would definitely be on you.

I was already told that there are no additional vendors, or I read it somewhere. 

And even if you could not imagine that your fancy vip forum means nothing to me, still, I couldn't care less about it. 

 

[DoomKitty]

WOW.  Just.......WOW

 

[LunaLovegood]

This feels a little bit like walking into a stranger’s house uninvited and then complaining that they aren’t making the dinner you wanted, and they don’t get HBO. It’s easy to stand on the sidelines and find fault with something someone else created and built. 

 

[Biskoinferno]

@tellme Your meaning of SPAM must be Americans favorite canned meat product ....HAHA... 

 

[tellme]

@Biskobro Funny.

spam: unsolicited usually commercial messages (such as e-mails, text messages, or Internet postings) sent to a large number of recipients or posted in a large number of places
https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/spam

unsolicited? No. I was welcomed here to pay 15 USD in order to interact with other forum members.
commercial? No.
mass messages? No.
 

spam: advertising material sent by email to people who have not asked for it
https://www.oxfordlearnersdictionaries.com/definition/english/spam_1?q=spam
Advertainments? No.
Did I break into a personal diary that someone hid behind his porn collection? No.

On Twitter, journalists, neo-nazis, members of the parliament, musicians, people who do not believe in climate change, everyone would interact with me, sometimes debate for hours or even days. One time, it took me three days of research to falsify a claim that a climate change denier had made. Until today, I thought people would visit forums to reading and writing.

Boy, did I learn...

PS: Don't worry, super important people who feel being disturbed by my sheer presence: Sometimes I am so depressed, I just sit on the sofa and all I do is waiting for the day to end. If I then find something new, I tend to be super excited about it, but this excitement usually wouldn't last long.