Emotional Pain

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Guys, I'm going through a rough patch. I took a break from cannabis and having a lot of trouble dealing with the negative thoughts and is why I used it (much more heavily in my past though). Looking at me, you wouldn't think I was someone that got picked on but I was constantly being attacked, belittled, called the f word in front of a group at a party because I was shy around girls, and downplayed by my parents just calling me "too sensitive". So, I stopped going to them for help because they would somehow turn it on me (oh you were drunk so you probably did something to deserve it - type shit). I have been treated so bad that I do wish I was never born. I have recently changed medications and put on something for pain because I have a bad back and need it to help with my emotional pain, which it is doing to a certain degree. I have forgiven all of the assholes in my life and actually made a list of people of when I think of them, I cringe or get angry. The list was about 100 people. But what I've been shown is that I have forgiven appropriately but the pain is still there, so that's why I changed medications. Let me ask you guys this, how do you guys cope with emotional pain without using medication or drugs?

Most recently my god father said some really fucked up things to me and things no father or god father should say to their son. I found out why - he had a kid struggling and just recently unfortunately passed away. I am just sick of people taking their shit out on me. I have NEVER done anything bad to ANYONE and I don't gossip or talk shit. I need some better friends and working on that now. I'm getting back into my belief in God and trying to move forward. I think once I get a solid job, a girlfriend, and possibly kids, I'll be able to let some of this old stuff go. It's just hard to see those bullies succeeding while the people they fucked with growing up are left picking up the pieces, with addictions, and worse. I hate bullies. Rant over.
 
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