I Admit

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On another website I used to haunt, well, to be honest I was an admin for several years. We had a thread called I ADMIT. On it you could admit anything, no censure. Everything HAD to be prefaced with an "I ADMIT"

Thought I'd throw it out here and see what happened. on the other site it is truculently over 16 thousand pages.

So, let me start:

I admit I HATZ HATZ HATZ waiting on late delivery vans! 

I admit looking outside to check to see who is out there makes me feel paranoid!

I admit I hope this takes off here, we had tons of fun with it!

 
I admit:

I have a favorite when it comes to my kids.

I admit:

I dont care at all for this  InformedDelivery  thing the UeSPeS has implemented. Not cool:/

 
I admit I am an addict an powerless over my addiction and am one lucky girl that I have this board and a few close friends that would overlook my drugfueled rages and incoherent nonsense I have posted on this board yet still encourage me that I can overcome my addiction. Today I am grateful to have you all!

 
I admit you also, are a very brave person.

I admit i too cannot go without my meds.

 
I admit that I too cannot go without my meds, but right now I am doing just that because I cannot keep my hands off my bottle.  Also, I am very poor.

I admit that I made a huge mistake at my job of 20 years, got fired, and have been in retail (nothing wrong with this) but it doesn't pay the mortgage, so I am losing my house.

I admit that I feel absolutely worthless, suicidal, and am tired of trying to re-invent myself over and over again.  

NOTE:  I am not not going to self-harm... in the slipstream of my brain

 
I admit I'm new here.

I admit I'm scared to death of this turn of events making doctors too afraid to continue the care you've been used to for 10+ years.

I admit I am afraid of pain.

I admit that when I found DBG my tummy did a flip and it's starting to feel like home already.

 
@FlyingSquirrel my heart sincerely goes out to you, I feel terrible for the situation you are in. I hate to say the phrase one day at a time because most of the people I used with I met in some program and when they relapsed they would call me and it's hard to refuse. Looking back none of them were my friends nor had my best self interest at heart.

i can relate feeling suicidal at times but once when I was just crying out for help honestly, I did way too much of one drug which I thought was another and woke my husband up told him I loved him (because my last words earlier were how much I hated him) and I remember waking up in the hospital grateful to be alive because I was revived twice thanks to the doctors that saved my life.  No one is worthless (mostly except rapist and child killers, etc...)we all have good attributes it's just hard to see when you're in a position like you have found yourself in. I can see you're in a lot of pain and I know that pain caused me to use more, so I just wouldn't feel anything at all. I realize now even though I had a hiccup the other day that pain is part of life but when you do and will come out the other side it makes you realize how truly beautiful life can be. I'll be looking out for you and if you ever need to talk start a thread! There's a bunch of loving people on here that will help you. They sure helped me through my tough times. Ask for help there is nothing wrong with it. My thoughts and prayers are with you. ❤️❤️❤️

 
I admit I also googled informed delivery because this is the first I've heard of it.

I admit I have no clue what this statement means:

"We also know that if we can get those folks to the mailbox, they'll spend longer with each piece of mail than someone who has a long history of mail usage."

Wtf? ?

 
I admit Flying, HANG IN THERE, it does get better. And hopefully you can work something out about your house.

 
I admit that I have too many things to admit and it would dominate the thread.  

Lets see....I admit that I am scared to order from Sy again because of the latest incident and I am not sure what to do. 

Other admissions may follow.....

Kudos to everyone that posted above me! 

 
I admit 

That I love all you folks and you help make the forum what it is! Really, no joking or insincerity! Thanks everyone! ☺ 

 
I admit I love you like a brother @PTFC for all your encouragement and other things as well. and this board is the best thing in my life right now. I admit I'm terrified after 4 months pretty damn clean off all hard stuff I cry everyday afraid to return home and it's quickly approaching. I admit I feel like sometimes I feel like my husband cares more about weed more than he does my happiness and safety. All he says is why can't you compromise stay 4 months in Florida and the rest in Denver and I'm terrified of going back to that life! I should be happy and smiling looking and smelling the ocean. But all I have is a fear of intending doom my way with a tear rolling down my face. Sigh....

 @aintnouse can't agree more!

 
I admit mouse, I AM TOO!!!

i ADMIT admit away, it is the purpose of the thread!

Iadmit I am trying our new invites only source.

I admit PTFC that I too am beginning to care a lot for some folks myselfs.

I admit to taking an extra date to help me work in my flower beds this morning cause I admit my impatiens and begonias been sitting on the deck twoo weeks nows!

 
I admit Heavenlee, hugss and prayers to the Goddess coming your way. Be strong.

 
I admit, I love this thread too @DaMerlyn!

Stay positive @Heavenlee,peaks and troughs remember , your slowly but surely coming up out of a trough! Hot thatchers again, and look after number 1 just now, YOU!

 
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  10. N @ NYStateofMind: so it was easy bc of my history
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  16. N @ NYStateofMind: @Alkazar do they know your history? Like I dont tell my doctor anything about myself except what they need to know,...I was able to get my dr to rx the highest dose of adderall along with valiums ..... if they dont know your history or there is no history I would just come out and ask what is the reason for their mistreatment.... they have no problem billing your insurance or taking a payment for the visit
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