I'm coming to this crossroads.. I guess 10yrs of never failing to wait over 30 days, never failing to tell my docs ALL I ingest.. ALL my honesty has bit me in the ass.. they'll give me ALL the CIV's I want and strangely Vic&Perk 10's.. knowing neither have ever worked since my surgery.. But if I am not willing to go down.. I get booted. I've been stuck on the couch in tears for almost full 24hr periods past week and 1/2.. told my PCP he replied w/ out hesitation "I CAN'T GIVE YOU ANYTHING" when 4 visits ago he was ready to give me 8 MSir30's/day and a 200er.. smh now, w/ the new laws, he doesn't care if I get cut off.. I'm ready to find new docs. I don't got a lotta $, but I am looking for a pay clinic.. if I can find one I'm golden cuz I NEED surgery, but my Dr refuses to write for MRI's after 6yrs smh, when 6yrs ago I had 3 discs protruding but over 2cm's from my spinal nerve.. well they ain't now.. I know the difference in pain. I'm tired of the gov't "scare tactics"
OFCOURSE TONS more people are turning to H, cuz they don't know WTF to do when they get cut off from 100's of mg's of shit just as potent. 20 yrs and my dr FINALLY lied to me.. cuz he CAN write.. I have no reason to stay here, none but family and it's gone to hell.. I can't keep supporting em.. I WISH so badly I'd sued Trams makers, I was so hooked on them at 20, BECAUSE EVERY DR gave em to me, and I saw like 10/mo back then.. boxes w/ butterflies, scripts of 210.. then 3-4 beans and boom.. I was hooked it was either them or something stronger..
I hate that Dr's are "Hiding" behind these damn laws.. and worse.. Mr Prez's Czar is a moron.. I can't get a decent pain dr cuz I toke.. straight up, now I LOVE my pain dr, but only cuz he CARES.. But he's not in "that" business anymore, he's only willing to work w/ patients willing to go down.. which I AM, but not on this med.. and he refuses to switch me. Thing is I WANT this too cuz when I DO decide.. surgery HAS to be done.. I don't want a tolerance like I had in '06, where it took almost 1/2grm of MS a day just so I could leave my house.. it's been 4 months I haven't gone anywhere but the grocery store.. since I dropped under 50/50.. before that I could travel, more importantly go see music which is a better P/K than ANYTHING I've found..
Years ago I asked my doctor for Trams and she said no,, they are narcotics.
A Music therapy thread.. Do you have any suggestions on where I could start one? Cuz I've met the most AMAZING people through music, have tons of stuff no one has access to, I'd share.. a few dabs and a few hours of the right music.. can take any pain away.. cure depression.. IF I thought I was gonna live longer, my plan would to be a counselor, cuz NONE use music/art therapy enough.. I've had enough tell me the same shit over and over.. now I tell them, cuz I seem to have learned more.. Dr's are 99% greed mongers.. And these laws(thanks again Obama!) have a lot of Dr's retiring at 45-50.. cuz they're tired of the gov't pushin them around.. can't blame em.. but.. any Doc looks at my MRI's, it's a miracle.. cuz any "specialist" I'm sent to does NO background checking, so.. I don't go to em anymore, cuz those kind LOVE to milk Medicaid.. it's sick but true.. I'm probly better off at a Clinic(MMaintainance) cuz they don't care about herb, but.. none will take me. I'm not "qualified" cuz I need it for pain. It's like the Gov't WANTS more dope heads.. population control and the sorts. OK Imma shut up but I SYMPATHIZE w/ you all.. and know if I DO get cut off.. it's off to ******, and one more casualty to these new laws and piss poor US dr services.. They know it too, as said I'm HONEST, so I straight up told both my docs, if something don't change.. I'm ready to take option #2.. Now actually doing that's a whole nother thread. But it's become a cess pool, PM dr's have become the joke to us suffering and it didn't use to be that way.. my Pharmy records are spotless as well but.. they don't check.. off to listen to Ben's show from last night.
We need a musical therapy thread on here..