@Solid Snoop
It's okay to have a minor slip, don't beat yourself up over it. It happens to most people, who have a 'problem' or history with benzo addiction. I've been able to stay away from alcohol for 2 years now, but I can't drop my benzo "habit" for 16 years. There was one year, when I went without them, but I felt like utter shit, always anxious, insomniac, social anxiety, the works, so I made a conscious decision to basically relapse, that I understand that is not healthy, but I will be probably on benzos for the rest of my life, so I went ahead, and stockpiled a few hundred of each, for different occasions. I have at least a 100 of every of the "usual" stuff, Rivotril, Kslalol, Versed, Aups, and Ativan.
I mostly use Rivotril at the daytime, and Ativan for insomnia. The rest are only for emergencies and it just makes me feel safer to have them, after the shit I've been through, when I ran out and had to go through cold turkey WDs. So it kinda became an OCD for me, to have them around.
But I root for you to reach your goal and get rid of your poison, you seem determined, so good luck!