No iam in the same boat. On subs for the last year, temazepam at night, along with two different heavy duty tranquilizers. Shit sux bad, but I've been as sober as I ever have been this last year. Horrible shit man, coming off a ridiculous poly drug dependence was the hardest shit I have ever done. It's been a year and I still have cravings. The subs help, but without my upper half of my daily speedball sessions I am left depressed. It wouldn't be so bad if I could get my doc to understand that my dependence was more than an opiate issue. Everytime I bring up the thought of managing the parts of my addiction other than my opiate problem, they shrug and say "here's some wellbutrin." I take U/A's (lab tests at that) and yet they still refuse to even think of prescribing anything else. I was diagnosed with ADHD in my child hood, and as I grew older the prescriptions they gave me varied. As an adult they discontinued my ADHD meds (where I'm at adult ADHD IS NOT recognized as an ailment.) I lost all ability to focus and promptly was fired from my job as a food service director, developed ptsd after the death of my mother, and was totally and completely depressed. I turned to street drugs, and began an almost ten year journey during which time I was diagnosed with a several mental health condition. This fueled my self medication with stimulants, and to take the edge off I dabbled in opiates and extremely large amounts of benzos. Like just shy of a gram a month etizolam habit, with 50 mg oc and whatever stimulant I could find. I forgot where I was going with this lol.