VoidHawk
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Yeah I hate seeds, others may feel differently. I actually like the pod-head tea though, either I have gotten used to it and associated it with good feelings, or maybe I liked it all along. I never really disliked it anyway. It does vary a bit from batch to batch, but today for example was the first dark "bitter" cup I have had in a while and it was delicious.
Of course, I am not a "bitter taster", a broad binary classification for which most are in one camp or the other. I like espresso, black coffee, and even a wormwood infusion I once made - talk about insanely bitter! Others I know can scarcely tolerate bitter elements of flavor. I loved bitterness in the tea especially, since we know what a dark bitter cup means . . .
In any event, my taper has been mostly successful so far, and I have been on this stuff for years. I sometimes wonder what cold turkey would feel like if I stopped right this second; I suspect it would not be nearly as bad as it was a few times over recent years. Now, I have mostly just maintained and even tapered with weaker domestic (US) pods. I hope to trade those for kratom soon, with a little help from some benzos, clonidine, gabapentin (maybe), and possibly other neuro-supplements (still researching), lope in fairly small quantities - none of this 60 mg/day sruff, maybe 8-12mg/day, and other things as my research clarifies my plan. And weed of course, now legal in mt state, and of course strenuous excercise, as hard as it is under WD.
I am starting to get more excited about quitting than I am the next batch, or the double/triple dose of ample supply and its attendant nod session, which has been rare for some time now anyway. I *may* even have a line on enough Iboga rootbark for an intense one person event. I am very experienced with ayahuasca, DMT, LSD etc.; those were always my true, if infrequent, loves when it came to altering my consciousness. (They also aligned beautifully with my love of cognitive science, physics, nonlinear dynamics and chaos theory, pure mathematics, nature etc.)
How I fell into this lesser realm of experience, one where time just slides by without personal growth and positive new experience , I do not know. I am an addict, long before pods, and my issues go deeper than a drug, even one that can attenuate one's neurochemistry as opiods do. Barring success on the Iboga front I will likely start with a big aya or pharma-huasca session; I have 100 g of perfect quality M. H0st1l1s inner rootbark that has gone unused for a long time, the contents of which are very stable stored properly. A deep dive into my own head, the universe itself, and the inevitable purge is likely to be a good starting point - for me personally anyway.
I honestly think I will finally make it this time; I have been close but don't have a solid week under my belt in what, five years or so now? I guess we'll see . . .
I hope to chronicle my experience, methods, success and failures when I jump off, perhaps here and on a couple of other sites. I am new here but there seem to be some great and caring people.
OK I am rambling again, sorry.
Love and light to all and may you find your path, each and every one.
(edits for clarity and typos, I am sure more remain)
Of course, I am not a "bitter taster", a broad binary classification for which most are in one camp or the other. I like espresso, black coffee, and even a wormwood infusion I once made - talk about insanely bitter! Others I know can scarcely tolerate bitter elements of flavor. I loved bitterness in the tea especially, since we know what a dark bitter cup means . . .
In any event, my taper has been mostly successful so far, and I have been on this stuff for years. I sometimes wonder what cold turkey would feel like if I stopped right this second; I suspect it would not be nearly as bad as it was a few times over recent years. Now, I have mostly just maintained and even tapered with weaker domestic (US) pods. I hope to trade those for kratom soon, with a little help from some benzos, clonidine, gabapentin (maybe), and possibly other neuro-supplements (still researching), lope in fairly small quantities - none of this 60 mg/day sruff, maybe 8-12mg/day, and other things as my research clarifies my plan. And weed of course, now legal in mt state, and of course strenuous excercise, as hard as it is under WD.
I am starting to get more excited about quitting than I am the next batch, or the double/triple dose of ample supply and its attendant nod session, which has been rare for some time now anyway. I *may* even have a line on enough Iboga rootbark for an intense one person event. I am very experienced with ayahuasca, DMT, LSD etc.; those were always my true, if infrequent, loves when it came to altering my consciousness. (They also aligned beautifully with my love of cognitive science, physics, nonlinear dynamics and chaos theory, pure mathematics, nature etc.)
How I fell into this lesser realm of experience, one where time just slides by without personal growth and positive new experience , I do not know. I am an addict, long before pods, and my issues go deeper than a drug, even one that can attenuate one's neurochemistry as opiods do. Barring success on the Iboga front I will likely start with a big aya or pharma-huasca session; I have 100 g of perfect quality M. H0st1l1s inner rootbark that has gone unused for a long time, the contents of which are very stable stored properly. A deep dive into my own head, the universe itself, and the inevitable purge is likely to be a good starting point - for me personally anyway.
I honestly think I will finally make it this time; I have been close but don't have a solid week under my belt in what, five years or so now? I guess we'll see . . .
I hope to chronicle my experience, methods, success and failures when I jump off, perhaps here and on a couple of other sites. I am new here but there seem to be some great and caring people.
OK I am rambling again, sorry.
Love and light to all and may you find your path, each and every one.
(edits for clarity and typos, I am sure more remain)
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