thanks, VoidHawk. Happy New Year! May more affordable, potent domestic p0ds be available in the coming weeks...
the R shipment was better than the other available domestics right now. i did not overindulge, but stretched it out to last a little longer than usual.
i remember PPD and when prices crept from like 50 cents a p0d to something like 7 dollars a pod! i did quit that time around... forced tapers from trying to make a tiny, expensive box last as long as a big box would, and eventually only some kr@tom to get me through the days. i was a lot stronger back then, i think.. i was able to handle WD better than i do now anyway... that, and maybe i was able to kind of "hide out" and detox without so many people noticing there was something off with me. If I could just go hide out somewhere for a week and if I had someone available to take my place and didn't have to worry about paying upcoming bills- it would make quitting a lot easier. anyway,when was that? around 2011? it was the first time i was ever able to enjoy kr@tom... maybe about 2 weeks or so after the last of my p0ds, the kr@tom i had been using to help the WD process (which at first didn't seem to do anything but make me feel dizzy, strange, and maybe get a little much-needed sleep here and there after it wore off) started to have a positive effect on my mood and motivation levels, and continued to do so. i did stay on it for quite awhile- it replaced my p0d usage, but at least it was more mild and not as expensive. i did indulge in PKs occasionally and once in awhile treat myself to a small box of p0ds, but my tolerance was MUCH lower. once all the Arizonas were gone- there was nothing really left but weak, overpriced p0ds anyway. (kind of like now, except there was no hope with vendors saying they are working on stock, and the price increase was so ridiculously high and noticeable) Too bad kr@tom doesn't do a thing for me now that i've been doing p0ds for years straight.
anyhow, i'll figure something out. i guess if i have to quit, i will have to, and tell people i have the flu or something. i don't know. I'd rather have a more affordable, quality vendor restock or open up shop though. soon.